Why even bother?

The more I write these blog entries, the more I look at how other people write and the way they express themselves with words.

Wow.

Like, I’ve been comparing a whole lot. I’ve been entering that disillusionment waiting area more and more. Some days I’ll write for hours and other times I can go a few days or weeks without turning a single page with a stroke of my pen. (it's actually been a while since I've written anything new)

No matter how determined you are in finally doing something, you will always find yourself comparing your creativity to someone else’s. What was I thinking when I thought that people would be interested in anything I’d have to say (shout out to those 3 friends who support me and that one grandma and 2 aunts who will clap their hands just for the way I sneeze and say how proud they are of me).

When will we ever not feel unqualified? Does that feeling ever really go away?

It’s normal to find inspiration from other people and to get different ideas. You grow from observation. But when you start comparing and contrasting and feeling inadequate, well…. I think it’s time to start looking in and going back to that quiet place.

Honestly I wish I had all the confidence in the world to never, ever, ever doubt myself again.

What do you usually do to overcome that comparison game?

Ps: Don’t worry 3 friends and 3 family members. I’m going to keep writing and posting these weekly blogs. Sorry if I ramble in some. Welcome to my brain. Enjoy your stay.